Now is now. I have to remember that. There are times when I get caught up in “when we move…”. It’s fun to imagine what life will be like “when.” But all we really have is now, so I’m trying to be more present in the day to day, more mindful of the now of things.
It’s a battle. Sometimes I win, other times I do not. As with anything, it takes practice. The hardest times are when I wish I was somewhere else: work when I’m fatigued from allergies or any medical waiting room. Baby steps.
My recent (and ongoing) battle with shoulder pain has unexpectedly given me some opportunities to stop and simply breathe, opportunities I would never have taken before but now must to heal. Everything happens for a reason. So says me.
I got these at BJs in hopes it might give me some relief. I have to lie flat on my back on the balls for quite a while, affording me the opportunity to focus on my breath. In the morning I attempt to mediate for 10 minutes whilst lying there. I’ve also sought the help of a doctor of acupuncture and oriental medicine. Those half-hour or so treatments find me in the dark with soothing music and lavender oil on my hands. Nothing to do but breathe and be.
I’m relearning to be mindful and present. Because when the next chapter finally begins, I don’t want to miss a moment.